sigh, ick

I’m in no mood to be social these days. I’d prefer to dance and be free. But that can’t really happen.

In ’social situations’ i feel like communicating through facial expressions and sounds rather than words. Even simple words seem like too much of a chore. I can’t seem to be bothered to be nice, polite or even ordinary anymore.

It doens’t affect all of the areas of my life though. When i’m in Visual Design for Marketing or in Advertising class, I’m so happy. I really look forward to it.

I’m so inspired by my profs, but at the same time, they kind of scare me. I hope to be just as, if not more creative and successful and just plain cool as they are when i grow up. haha!

That’s why i want to impress them. Their approval means more than a good grade to me. I just hope i’m not disappointed at the end of the sem. I want to do well for myself but i want them to notice my efforts. How on earth am i supposed to do that?!

Anyway, i just hope i can get over whatever it is i’m feeling. It’s weird and annoying and i just want it to stop. I hope for some interesting and fun things to happen in school, but i doubt if anything even close to my imagination will ever happen. Sigh…

Thanks for listening,

sourspicy: bleah – hum hum hum hum